wake up call

not the maroon5 type, but rather the "get your ass out of bed on your off days mic, and do the damn thing." kinda wake up call. i feel like ive been out of the loop, as if nursing school and nursing jobs and nursing everything else has drained the social part out of me. like ive been saying, "no, no, no i cant," so often that no one asks me to do anything anymore. but its cool, even pac says only god can judge me. and bps says, i can only judge myself...true and true. spoke to neens katreens last night and thought, maybe i have to change my job? to fit in with the 9-5'ers so i can go to mtgs or attend things on the weekends, but thats not so easy. running around busting 12 hours shifts here there and everywhere is the way its got to be. soooo, i have to work around it, and thats that fat cat. now, where to begin??

#1. its just an f'ing shame that my place is not fixed yet. im getting another job doing home health just to make ends meet. does that make sense? are nurses supposed to be broke? i didnt think so, but then again maybe that doesnt apply to the RN's with credit card bills, schools loans, rent, and a car note. have i said that already?? i feel like its a running thought in my head. blah. i start my midnight-8am shifts this week. i should be sleeping right now, or getting ready to at least.

#2. gotta invest in a good quality space heater that isnt going to blow up my place. possibly this one. i dont want to turn the heater on 'cause im cheap ass, and most importantly 'cause i didnt quite think of the issue id have during the winter with my curtains in the bedroom. when i use the aircon, no prob. but theyre quite close to the vent opening thats on the ceiling, and the last thing i need is for them to go up in flames 'cause i cant find the tags so iduno if theyre flame retardant or not. dammit. but a friendly ikea source said more than likely they are not...so space heater...here i come!

#3. i have an interview with a home health place this week. can i fit that in the schedule? im gona have to right?? so wiff that, im gona have to invest in a gps and possibly a new phone. i mean, i would like to, i get lost, and id have to find my way!! but ok, ok, priorities sister! hello! i guess there's always the va store where i wont have to pay tax. ggyeah baby.

#4. tickets tickets tickets. tengo que comprar esos asap! nyc, possibly DC, and to miami. yes, 2nd income is a must.

#5. about #1...i have to put the stuff in my boxes away. i believe i moved in in June?? its november, the fcuk??

#6. gota read more. books are the keys to everything. and i have to journal more, not blog, but journal more.

#7. this really isnt anything serious, just being silly, but i ♥ T.I. he's a hottie. and his teeth are perfect. cant get a glimpse of the gleaming grill in this pic, but when you see it, you'll be wow'd. ha!


...alright, guess i should get going. my place doesnt have the best parking spots and i have to leave tonight by 1130pm. blah. in about 10hrs, it'll be time to make the donuts.

Got everybody watching what I do
come walk in my shoes
and see the way Im livin if you really want to
got my mind on my money
and Im not goin nowhere

So keep on getting ya paper and keep on climbing
look in the mirror and keep on shining
till the game ends till the clock stop
we gon'post up on the top spot

So live ya life!