when everything falls into place...(from LJ)

..it feels quite lovely. spent 5 days in florida, between kendall, miramar, and fort lauderdale...miami, not so much. just via the highway, and "mama, that's miami..." it rained a couple times, but the sun did its job and the ocean made me happy. i havent been near or in it since summer '06 wiff PSPsilog. i love the ocean and because of it and among other things that pull at my heartstrings...i might consider...i got a call back from the secret place, havent made it official yet, but once the papers are signed i'll be 38g's lighter. amen. i started taking dance classes again. hawaiian hula kahiko and auana (ancient and modern) and tahitian. its a great way to start the week. its physically, mentally, emotionally, and did i say physically challenging?? i forgot about the muscles in my legs that exist, they burn when i walk up and down the stairs as a reminder.

i might be able to attend the Asian American, Native Hawaiian and Pacific Islander Cancer Survivorship ConferenceJuly 22-24, in Burlingame, CA near SFO. the opportunity literally fell in my lap. a god send to say the least. it felt good to be at the school, meeting new people, talking about goals and working with and for the community. *sigh* its been such a long time. im blessed for many things. cant wait to see what's next. woot.

the little things (from LJ)

yup, thats what counts...for you or against you. in the end they pile up for good and the bad. i like little instumentals in the background of songs. i like the trumpets and the piano in this one. my twin is making a comeback. ha. lets not forget the goodfellas remix. luurrved it. oh nelly. today is day 9 of the cleanse. definitely a challenge. a wholistic cleansing challenge. 7lbs down. im scared of the relapse, but if i gain it all back, at least the toxins and gunk are gone. been craving food, not the grease or sweets but fruits and veggies, tofu wiff hoison sauce. yay. the concoction is mos def soul food cuz ive been making/having more spiritual realizations that have helped me cross that clarity line. and thats yummy. toots' bday is tomorrow. mattress comes in on thursday. work. work. work and work. then MIA! cant wait to be in the ocean again. *sigh* my joy.


oh oh oh boy you bring me joy...

day 3. (from LJ)

i miss my dog :( we cant have pets in the building. boo.

i took the bus to my parents house, gona pick up the truck, run errrands, then head over to a secret place, for a secret meeting. cross your fingers and if it comes true, i'll let the secret out. womp. i havent been on the bus in a while. i miss it, it took me back to WY and the good times. today is a good day. clarity is my friend. day 3 of the cleanse, feeling good, feeling lighter (in the body, in the soul). what they say is true. the light is getting brighter. aint no room for the wicked or the heavy burdens. j and i talked about our '5 goals before 30' email. we sent it to eachother in 2oo5. gotta switch up some names, faces, and the locations, but feels good to know we're right on track. check, check, double check!

that was then. (from LJ)

9 days ago: played catchups with mc, that was long overdue. chipotle and baskin robbins. yum. when you look back at how we met, you might want to chuckle. my oh my, how far we've both come.

6 days ago: i cried spontaneously. my eyes were open, closed, and wide open once again all in a matter of 1.5hrs. far from beautiful eyes. but in the end, for good reason. i know now what needs to be done, and how i need to go about doing it. 9 (1 x 9) = not quite what i expected, but alas, not much you can do about it now. and here we are. welcome to the good life. because it is a good life. maybe just not what was originally written, but that's why preliminary drafts were created...gotta get it right for the final draft. due: soon.

2 days ago: 2 weddings, 2 rapid responses, 1 code blue, a frequent flyer in the ICU, funeral arrangements, a thunder and lightening show, lots of rain, and grey's anatomy cheesiness.

1 day ago: after church, i cried again. be it the music, or the message, i cried. no, its not about the cycle, ugh. its about the recycling that happens in my head...that as of the 8th. i put to rest. for real this time. my heart n soul is just a bit tired. i finally saw j-bps and caught up with her before taking her to the airport. no reason to NOT see each other when she's here. gotta make moves to see her in nyc. the 'move' option in the texting menu is a life saver. its good to be reminded of things, thats how clarity happens.

today: the cleanse is in full effect. i slept at my apartment last night. its a bit strange living alone. for now at least. maybe it'll change once every thing's in place and i have food in the fridge, and tv, or something more than just the rinky dink bathroom radio. ha. the past few days have really been an eye opener for me. there's a reason why we move on to other things. the bigger and better part is optional. i dont think id be where im at, who i am, and how i am if i stayed in the then. with school, relationships, job choices, errrthang. so here we are, in the now. got no time to snooze.

Faithful is our God
(repeat 3x)

I'm reaping the harvest God promised me
Take back what the devil stole from me
And I rejoice today, for I shall recover it all
And I rejoice today, for I shall recover it all.

(back to Faithful)

Jesus, Jesus
Jesus is our God
(repeat 3x)

I'm reaping the harvest God promised me
Take back what the devil stole from me
And I rejoice today, for I shall recover it all
And I rejoice today, for I shall recover it all

Im reaping the harvest God promised me
Take back what the devil stole from me

And I rejoice today (8x)

For I shall recover it all!