a little sweat aint never hurt nobody. (from LJ)

CONGRATS TO MY LIL' siSTAR: possible LPN STATUS!

yes, feeling silly. i love when the sun is out. heated...but not so much lately. sun's present, but the warmth...not so much. unseasonably COLD 'round these parts. went to the gym yesterday. wow. almost died trying to kick two miles out of my sneaks. one four three in more ways than one. get on it. tickets to MIA have been purchased. looking forward to the ocean. i heart the ocean. i took moms to a polynesian music & dance show last night. we loved it. she reminisced about shanghai lil's with some other folks. she's so cute. been slacking on the packing of stuffs. kinda just waiting for the bigger things to be delivered before i make moves. heading over there later to tidy up the kitchen and take plates n mugs n such out of the boxes. clean, dry, shelve. works getting better. staying on AMs now. getting tired of the yoyo action. but i suppose staying on days is best anyway. gotta put in at least one extra day once a pay pd so im not stretching bills. oh the price you pay.

jer made a video, brought tears to mine eyes. with everything that's been happening back home, with the death toll rising, some people being recognized, other people not being heard of, the video came at a good time for me. i remember why i went, what happened while i was there, and what i brought back. its been almost two years and i have yet to journal, recopy my class notes, upload my pictures/videos, but i'll get to it. i know i have to get on top of [re:]connecting with folks here there and everywhere. jus gotta make it happen. bps talks about the new york state of mind, busy, busy, busy, on the go always. midwest is slow, take your time, it'll get done. i definitely need a jump start to find balance.

mission 1, 2, 3...103.

be careful what you ask for (from LJ)

...you just might get it.

things happen 'cause they're supposed to. but its just strange. although bps reminds me: there are no accidents...there is only some purpose we haven't yet understood [d. chopra]. it still strikes me as strange. its in the quick glance you give/get, or you happen to leave the chart somewhere it doesnt belong, you step into a room "just because," get on an elevator 'cause the first one was too crowded, or you decided to take the stairs, or walk instead of catching the bus, or the text you send "just because" just to find out a whole bunch of otha stuff you weren't quite ready for, why you took the flight, or went on the trip, or took that particular route home from work, or why some people die, and others still linger. i am a rambling hot mess right now. too much on the brain. im not going to sandiwa. cant make it, but texts i get at 1 in the morning remind me of why i yearn to go in the first place. what psp is. who they all are to me. switching from am's to pm's by the grace of god. getting my furniture together with the magical word: finance. possibly going to MIA with another magical word: voucher. the siSTARS are at kanye's concert. chris brown made an appearance. cute. moms bought me my kitchen stuffs which means: mic has no excuse, i must cook. i can, its just a matter of preparing things and just doing it. guess if i dont want to starve i'll give in. the apt is 1.3 miles south of the parentals. hehe, 1.3 miles away from a full belly and not having to cook. joke. i wont be lazy. switching shifts opens time for mtgs, dance class, a social life. we shall see. your eyes cant be wide open when glaucoma hits. dubbed legally blind. diabetes scares me. it runs in my family, yet i devour carbs and sweets on the daily. nurses never really are good patients. but im officially spooked. bleeding gums, cold sweats, insulin pumps or injections, no thanks. to cleanse or be cleansed. to be broke or stay broke. boo. create a professional boundary. hello. two years from now. i'll still be lucky. super cheese face.

♥ ♫ ♥ ♫ ♥
Do you hear me,
I'm talkin' to you
Across the water, across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm tryin'
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinnin' round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

my "off" day. (from LJ)

im off from work, and off with everything else, time, budget, schedules, blegh. its a beautiful day and imma try my bestesters to take advantage of it. heading to BBB for shelving and rugs for the bathroom, a doormat, kitchen rugs and supplies, and some coat racks. gona have them drilled in on sunday. gota hire movers and shakers for my bed and computer desk. my siSTARS and i have a field day whenever we're looking for apt stuff. picking out furniture and shopping for window curtains is where the fun is at...but having to get them up two flights of stairs, and putting curtains in and hanging them up is another story. it sucks. s. left on the 13th, we tried getting as much as possible done before he hopped on the plane. *sigh* yes, i knew it wasnt gona be a piece of cake. luckily he asked r. to help with the windows and the drilling. critical care classes end on the 20th, then back to the reality of the world. work and more work. im looking at my career choices with the 'then' in mind, not the 'now.' but oh the sacrifices to be made.

im still hoping that once i get settled in the apt i'll be on top of all that i said i wanted to do.
so, today im crazy...just hope i can run off this craziness and it dont drain me. boo.

17.work
18.church.work on apartment stuffs
19.med exam
20.final exam//graduation
21.work
22.work
23.dentist
24.work
25.off day. work on more apt stuffs??

just lovely.

it's official! (from LJ)

i signed the lease. moving begins at right now 'o' clock. told the parentals. they're definitely in agreeance that its a mic move, but super in r-e-s-p-e-c-t, take care TCB mode. just gotta battle it out wiff my checkbook to make things happen. im excited about painting, and moving in, and getting (cheap-O) furniture, and everything else that comes with it. yay.

* y a w n * (from LJ)

el rinconcito cubano for dinner. yum. consensus, not taking the apartment. back to square one. square. staying on days. not going to nights til...aiming for june. still havent packed a thing. class and more class. s. is leaving soon. checks coming in soon, i think. lbs to shed, miles to run, people to call, people to meet up with, emails to delete and read. got me my CPR and ACLS certs, woot. container store. yes, lurve it. miko's is yum. mango and coconut. word to the wise, everything resurfaces. nothing stays buried. and if you cant cry, maybe it's cause you're secretly rejoicing. virtue. no need for complications. same ol' same ol being listed. i act like there's something new. no, not really. not til i quit being a lazy ass. just waiting i guess. waiting for my own space. then i'll get to the super long to do list. sewing, dance class, car wash, shoe boxes, upload pics...pick up pants from dry cleaners. dammit.